exceptions for the tumblrs!
you could be happy I hope you are…
do the things you always wanted to…” —Snow Patrol.
So a lot of things have happened to me this year. But its seemed to of just passed me by, like everything major was a blur.. But when I think of it, that’s how I remember everything, in blurs? Like how my grandfather passed away this year, it seemed like a blur. The only thing I remember so clearly from that time was when we went to spread his ashes the water was so clear. It was so deep and I could see the sand at the bottom of the ocean. Also I’m really bad a dates. Like I said, I remember everything like blur’s. Another unfortunate event that has happened is the passing of my husband’s grandfather. Those were great losses to mine and his family.
Later, as this year has been coming to an end, my relationship status has gone from “in a relationship” to “married” that’s right I went from a ms? to a Mrs. I have to say it feels really weird. Some good and bad. I feel like because my last name has changed I have to find myself even more so now. Like a little lost? Don’t get me wrong I love my husband with all I have. He’s my best friend and father of my child. I don’t know just kinda wired… Hopefully I can find the words to really describe what being married feels like. But it’s funny to feel this way I guess…
Being that I am only 19 I feel as if I have been through a lot of the “life experiences” already. I’ve had my first child, married, graduated, working…. it just feels done. I always forget that I’m 19… honestly.
I guess that’s why I feel like I’ve lost a little of myself… But I have hope that I will gain most of me back. Which is why starting this year, 2011 I want to start to get back into drawing. I’ve always loved drawing. mostly portraits and a little of everything else. I want to start painting more also, just over all get creative again. not that one can ever stop being creative. listen and discover more music blah blah blah.. i know i’m boaring….sorry
Well thanks to anyone who got to read this………..